I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
-Marilyn Monroe
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Frozen Yogurt?!
Today was a good day.
Spent the first half of the day with my family at my Uncle's picnic.
GODDAMN! Hella food there. LOL! It was alright. My other uncle kept teasing me and shit.
Cause one my uncle's co-worker's daughter kept looking at me. LOL!
BALLING! But no thanks. She looked way to fucking young. And even if she wasn't, no thanks.
But another chick my uncle didn't see made me laugh inside.
So I was sitting listening to music and drinking my soda. I look up and then I see her sitting on the other side. She was wearing sunglasses. And then she turned to my direction.
Put down my soda, look back up, to see that she pulled her shades up just to look.
LOL! HELLA NOT OBVIOUS. I must be good. ;D Ahahaha.
Didn't get no numbers though. D: But it's cool. They prolly live like nowhere near me.
No thanks for long distance.
So yea, that was the first half.
Got home and showered and waited to get picked up.
Went out with Camille, Tina, and Phillip(Camille's boyfriend).
Chilled in the Willow Glen area.
Ate at Willow Glen Wood-Fired Pizza? Think that's the name.
Hella good. Thanks Phillip for paying! :D
Went to Pallows? I think that's how to spell that one too. LOL!
HOLY SHIT! That was like candy heaven. No lie. Old school candy to new ones. Fucking saw chiclets for the first time in a loooong ass time. And hella other shit. AND RAZZLES!
Fuck, all I know is if I'm ever nearby I'ma stop by.
Fuck, candy heaven I tell you.
Then we went to get some frozen yogurt.
Fuck, it was hella good. Gotta remember that place. COOKIE DOUGH! :D
And Tina's failed cone that broke after like 3 licks. LOL!
So yea, Phillip went home to get some stuff and then he dropped Tina off first and then me.
Good day. I could use more days like those. Needa get away from home.
Lately, I've been feeling tall again.
So I guess it means I'm moving on.
Kinda reluctant. But this is what's best.
So it's time to start anew.
And I'll start here.
I wish you well and the best.
I salute you.
Spent the first half of the day with my family at my Uncle's picnic.
GODDAMN! Hella food there. LOL! It was alright. My other uncle kept teasing me and shit.
Cause one my uncle's co-worker's daughter kept looking at me. LOL!
BALLING! But no thanks. She looked way to fucking young. And even if she wasn't, no thanks.
But another chick my uncle didn't see made me laugh inside.
So I was sitting listening to music and drinking my soda. I look up and then I see her sitting on the other side. She was wearing sunglasses. And then she turned to my direction.
Put down my soda, look back up, to see that she pulled her shades up just to look.
LOL! HELLA NOT OBVIOUS. I must be good. ;D Ahahaha.
Didn't get no numbers though. D: But it's cool. They prolly live like nowhere near me.
No thanks for long distance.
So yea, that was the first half.
Got home and showered and waited to get picked up.
Went out with Camille, Tina, and Phillip(Camille's boyfriend).
Chilled in the Willow Glen area.
Ate at Willow Glen Wood-Fired Pizza? Think that's the name.
Hella good. Thanks Phillip for paying! :D
Went to Pallows? I think that's how to spell that one too. LOL!
HOLY SHIT! That was like candy heaven. No lie. Old school candy to new ones. Fucking saw chiclets for the first time in a loooong ass time. And hella other shit. AND RAZZLES!
Fuck, all I know is if I'm ever nearby I'ma stop by.
Fuck, candy heaven I tell you.
Then we went to get some frozen yogurt.
Fuck, it was hella good. Gotta remember that place. COOKIE DOUGH! :D
And Tina's failed cone that broke after like 3 licks. LOL!
So yea, Phillip went home to get some stuff and then he dropped Tina off first and then me.
Good day. I could use more days like those. Needa get away from home.
Lately, I've been feeling tall again.
So I guess it means I'm moving on.
Kinda reluctant. But this is what's best.
So it's time to start anew.
And I'll start here.
I wish you well and the best.
I salute you.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Goodbye Summer.
So summer has come to an end.
School starts tomorrow.
Hopefully my classes will be cool.
So summer overall was good. Got rough towards the end.
But that's life, right? Shit happens.
Regrets? Nah, I ain't got none.
I've changed. I know that much.
For good or worse? I dunno.
Time will tell. Or maybe I'll become my old self.
I wouldn't mind that. I'd like that actually.
I guess you could say I was invincible before everything happened.
Nothing really brought me down much.
Hmm. But like I said, shit happens.
It just drives me crazy how much I've changed.
Now that I look back at it, it makes me laugh.
Maybe I was just being foolish. Who knows. But whatevs.
Hopefully things will turn in my favor eventually.
To me the beginning of a new school year is really the "new" year for me and the end of the old.
So it's time to clean the slate and start anew.
Wouldn't mind meeting new people and catching up with those I haven't seen in awhile.
It'd be a nice change instead of coming home all the time.
I needa get out of the house... like seriously.
Alright, well I'm out.
The Office - Fly Away
Jordan Omley - Just A Lie
School starts tomorrow.
Hopefully my classes will be cool.
So summer overall was good. Got rough towards the end.
But that's life, right? Shit happens.
Regrets? Nah, I ain't got none.
I've changed. I know that much.
For good or worse? I dunno.
Time will tell. Or maybe I'll become my old self.
I wouldn't mind that. I'd like that actually.
I guess you could say I was invincible before everything happened.
Nothing really brought me down much.
Hmm. But like I said, shit happens.
It just drives me crazy how much I've changed.
Now that I look back at it, it makes me laugh.
Maybe I was just being foolish. Who knows. But whatevs.
Hopefully things will turn in my favor eventually.
To me the beginning of a new school year is really the "new" year for me and the end of the old.
So it's time to clean the slate and start anew.
Wouldn't mind meeting new people and catching up with those I haven't seen in awhile.
It'd be a nice change instead of coming home all the time.
I needa get out of the house... like seriously.
Alright, well I'm out.
The Office - Fly Away
Jordan Omley - Just A Lie
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Let it Burn.
So I got my schedule for senior year. 5 classes! WHOOO!
1st - Spanish 3 Quiroga...she's fcuking weird
2nd - Math Analysis Bhatnagar
3rd - Physiology Taylor
4th - English 4 Aisola
5th - AP Gov Fanciullo
5th - Economics 2nd semester
Open 6th and 7th! Go home at lunch everyday. Yay me!
So yea, got my ID card too. Got my books after cuz the book room was gunna be closed.
How lame. Lazy fools don't wanna give it out on the frist week. -_-
And then Thai dropped me and Phillip back at my house. We dropped off our books and then biked to Taco Bell for lunch. Went back to EV after so Phillip could take his senior portaits. Turns out the paper was wrong. You have to make an appointment in order to retake them. So we went up for nothing. Came home and chilled for a bit and Phillip went home.
So she stopped by yesterday. I just said Hey. She was with Michelle most of the time. I didn't know what to say. And I kinda didn't want to talk. Because If I started a conversation then that means I'd have to say goodbye. The frist time was hard enough. To do it again? I don't think I could've handle it. It was like she muted me when she came. I didn't talk at all. I just sat in front of my computer. I don't know I think I've become foolish. I know why I haven't been sleeping. Before she'd call around 3ish. So i got use to it. So even when I tell myself not to wait because I know she's isnt going to call, I end up waiting anyways. I just lay there. Listening to music and checking my phone constantly. Heh, lame huh? That's how I've been spending my summer nights. Just waiting by the phone. Wishing that she'd call or drop a text to say what's up. Its funny though. I wanna talk to her but at the same time, I'm hesitant to do so.
It's like what do I say to her? Talking to someone is so much harder than it sounds.
But it seems like she's doing good now. And I think I got my answer.
I think it's time to let it burn.
1st - Spanish 3 Quiroga...she's fcuking weird
2nd - Math Analysis Bhatnagar
3rd - Physiology Taylor
4th - English 4 Aisola
5th - AP Gov Fanciullo
5th - Economics 2nd semester
Open 6th and 7th! Go home at lunch everyday. Yay me!
So yea, got my ID card too. Got my books after cuz the book room was gunna be closed.
How lame. Lazy fools don't wanna give it out on the frist week. -_-
And then Thai dropped me and Phillip back at my house. We dropped off our books and then biked to Taco Bell for lunch. Went back to EV after so Phillip could take his senior portaits. Turns out the paper was wrong. You have to make an appointment in order to retake them. So we went up for nothing. Came home and chilled for a bit and Phillip went home.
So she stopped by yesterday. I just said Hey. She was with Michelle most of the time. I didn't know what to say. And I kinda didn't want to talk. Because If I started a conversation then that means I'd have to say goodbye. The frist time was hard enough. To do it again? I don't think I could've handle it. It was like she muted me when she came. I didn't talk at all. I just sat in front of my computer. I don't know I think I've become foolish. I know why I haven't been sleeping. Before she'd call around 3ish. So i got use to it. So even when I tell myself not to wait because I know she's isnt going to call, I end up waiting anyways. I just lay there. Listening to music and checking my phone constantly. Heh, lame huh? That's how I've been spending my summer nights. Just waiting by the phone. Wishing that she'd call or drop a text to say what's up. Its funny though. I wanna talk to her but at the same time, I'm hesitant to do so.
It's like what do I say to her? Talking to someone is so much harder than it sounds.
But it seems like she's doing good now. And I think I got my answer.
I think it's time to let it burn.
Pretty Damn Good.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.Friday, August 14, 2009
"Nothing I can do, but to sit and think of you..."
11:11 Make a wish.
So today was beach day with some of the SPC kids. It was pretty fun.
First time at Sunset beach. Pretty nice there. A lotta people though.
It was windy. And the water was freezing cold as always.
Chilled at the beach until 5ish and then we headed out.
Everyone came back to my house. Ahaha. As always, either mines or Camille's house.
Where we grilled the rest of the burgers and got hot dogs. Made grilled cheese also.
Chilled some more. Pictionary. Wii. Movies. And boxing with the guys.
Ahahah! Anthony's stance is fucking hilarious.
And then we ended with a movie as always.
The last to leave were Myanh and Phouc Anh.
Chill day I guess.
Fourteenth.
Happy Would-Be Three Months.
To be honest, today was shit.
Woke up in the morning to realize that it was the 14th. Sitting on my bed.
The same place I asked her out. The same place we decided to put aside the title of boyfriend/girlfriend. The same place the conversation to end it completely took place.
So many memories came back. All the times we spent together, the stupid moments, the little fights over nothing, the big fights, and the love we shared. And no, not that dirty shit for all you dirty minded people. Leave those thoughts for some place else. Thanks.
I don't know how much longer I can keep up this happy face on. Because to be honest. I'm not.
Lately I've been crying so easily over the little things that remind me of you. It's quite lame actually. Watching the Korean Fullhouse with my little sister. And how their story was somewhat like ours. The part when they decided to finish through with the divorce... I didn't even notice until Michelle asked if I needed a tissue. I was like "What the fuck are you talking about?!"
Wipe my eyes to see that there were tears. Shocked me. I've never been like this before. Never.
Honestly, today I was happy for Tiffany and Richy. They made it to six months. They beat everyone's expectaions. But, at the same time I hated them. I envied them. They made it this far. But, I couldn't make it. Seeing them spend time together just reminds me of her even more. The whole day I was trying to avoid Tiffany and Richy. Ahaha. I guess Richy sensed something was wrong. Cause he kept coming up to me to see what's up. Funny how things never work out how you want it to. But, that's life. I wonder if she even thinks of me. School's starting after next week. Summer went by to fast. I'm not ready for it. I wonder if I'll see her again anytime soon. Or if I'll ever see her again at all. I miss her. And to be honest, I still love her. Maybe I'm a fool for holding on. But, I'm not here to ask for another chance to make things the way they were.
Because I believe that everything happens for a reason.
My only request is that maybe, just maybe, one day; her and I could start over. No, not from where we left off. But a fresh start. It'll be hard. But, if we try, then nothing's impossible.
To start anew. As if we just met for the first time. Ahaha. But, I guess all of this is just wishful thinking. I'll probably never get another chance. Love hurts, but it's a price we all choose to pay.
It's the risk that everyone who fall in love take.
Well it's late and I'm going to try and get some sleep.
Haven't been sleeping well. And the mornings are painful and tiring.
Goodnight.
I miss you.
David Choi - Only You
So today was beach day with some of the SPC kids. It was pretty fun.
First time at Sunset beach. Pretty nice there. A lotta people though.
It was windy. And the water was freezing cold as always.
Chilled at the beach until 5ish and then we headed out.
Everyone came back to my house. Ahaha. As always, either mines or Camille's house.
Where we grilled the rest of the burgers and got hot dogs. Made grilled cheese also.
Chilled some more. Pictionary. Wii. Movies. And boxing with the guys.
Ahahah! Anthony's stance is fucking hilarious.
And then we ended with a movie as always.
The last to leave were Myanh and Phouc Anh.
Chill day I guess.
Fourteenth.
Happy Would-Be Three Months.
To be honest, today was shit.
Woke up in the morning to realize that it was the 14th. Sitting on my bed.
The same place I asked her out. The same place we decided to put aside the title of boyfriend/girlfriend. The same place the conversation to end it completely took place.
So many memories came back. All the times we spent together, the stupid moments, the little fights over nothing, the big fights, and the love we shared. And no, not that dirty shit for all you dirty minded people. Leave those thoughts for some place else. Thanks.
I don't know how much longer I can keep up this happy face on. Because to be honest. I'm not.
Lately I've been crying so easily over the little things that remind me of you. It's quite lame actually. Watching the Korean Fullhouse with my little sister. And how their story was somewhat like ours. The part when they decided to finish through with the divorce... I didn't even notice until Michelle asked if I needed a tissue. I was like "What the fuck are you talking about?!"
Wipe my eyes to see that there were tears. Shocked me. I've never been like this before. Never.
Honestly, today I was happy for Tiffany and Richy. They made it to six months. They beat everyone's expectaions. But, at the same time I hated them. I envied them. They made it this far. But, I couldn't make it. Seeing them spend time together just reminds me of her even more. The whole day I was trying to avoid Tiffany and Richy. Ahaha. I guess Richy sensed something was wrong. Cause he kept coming up to me to see what's up. Funny how things never work out how you want it to. But, that's life. I wonder if she even thinks of me. School's starting after next week. Summer went by to fast. I'm not ready for it. I wonder if I'll see her again anytime soon. Or if I'll ever see her again at all. I miss her. And to be honest, I still love her. Maybe I'm a fool for holding on. But, I'm not here to ask for another chance to make things the way they were.
Because I believe that everything happens for a reason.
My only request is that maybe, just maybe, one day; her and I could start over. No, not from where we left off. But a fresh start. It'll be hard. But, if we try, then nothing's impossible.
To start anew. As if we just met for the first time. Ahaha. But, I guess all of this is just wishful thinking. I'll probably never get another chance. Love hurts, but it's a price we all choose to pay.
It's the risk that everyone who fall in love take.
Well it's late and I'm going to try and get some sleep.
Haven't been sleeping well. And the mornings are painful and tiring.
Goodnight.
I miss you.
David Choi - Only You
Friday, August 7, 2009
"As my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost..."
August 6th,
Hai's birthday was that day. Met up at Red Robins. 30 kids. GG.
They wouldnt take us in until we had all 30 so we had to wait. Asian time ftl.
The bill in total was like 400? LOL! Man, we're such pigs.
After we ate. some kids headed home and the rest of us went to Barnes & Nobles.
Finally got my AP Gov book. Looks boring. Didn't even start it yet.
After that the rest of the kids that could stay later headed over to Camille's house.
Movie marathon! LOL! And some gossiping. It seems Nang is finally growing some balls.
LOL! That fool is finally trying. Jesus, after what? 3 years? Hah.
Headed home at around 11:30ish or so.
She was going to come over and chill. But I had plans and she couldn't have made it until later in the day. It's been so long. I wonder when I will see her again. Will I ever see her again?
I sure hope I do.
August 7th,
California's Great America with some of the Leadership kids! Hella fun.
Mom and Michelle decided to tag along. I guess...
Top Gun was closed though. D: Didn't get to go on that one. Invertigo was fucking scary as hell.
3 seconds of hangtime... and then CLICK!(brakes unlock)...SWOOSH! Off you go.
I gotta admit though, it was hella fun.
And then spent the rest of the time at Boomerang Bay.
Wave pool, water slides, and Castaway Creek.
Had some funnel cake and then we left. Dropped off Richy first and then My-Anh after.
And then had to cousins house to eat after. It was fucking 9pm and I still had to go.
Was so tired and sunburnt...
Came home, chilled online for a bit and then I crashed.
Yes, I started this post on Friday. I didn't finish it till now.
-_- It's Sunday.
I miss you.
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life
SteveO - Crying Inside
Hai's birthday was that day. Met up at Red Robins. 30 kids. GG.
They wouldnt take us in until we had all 30 so we had to wait. Asian time ftl.
The bill in total was like 400? LOL! Man, we're such pigs.
After we ate. some kids headed home and the rest of us went to Barnes & Nobles.
Finally got my AP Gov book. Looks boring. Didn't even start it yet.
After that the rest of the kids that could stay later headed over to Camille's house.
Movie marathon! LOL! And some gossiping. It seems Nang is finally growing some balls.
LOL! That fool is finally trying. Jesus, after what? 3 years? Hah.
Headed home at around 11:30ish or so.
She was going to come over and chill. But I had plans and she couldn't have made it until later in the day. It's been so long. I wonder when I will see her again. Will I ever see her again?
I sure hope I do.
August 7th,
California's Great America with some of the Leadership kids! Hella fun.
Mom and Michelle decided to tag along. I guess...
Top Gun was closed though. D: Didn't get to go on that one. Invertigo was fucking scary as hell.
3 seconds of hangtime... and then CLICK!(brakes unlock)...SWOOSH! Off you go.
I gotta admit though, it was hella fun.
And then spent the rest of the time at Boomerang Bay.
Wave pool, water slides, and Castaway Creek.
Had some funnel cake and then we left. Dropped off Richy first and then My-Anh after.
And then had to cousins house to eat after. It was fucking 9pm and I still had to go.
Was so tired and sunburnt...
Came home, chilled online for a bit and then I crashed.
Yes, I started this post on Friday. I didn't finish it till now.
-_- It's Sunday.
I miss you.
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life
SteveO - Crying Inside
Thursday, August 6, 2009
What now?
It's been awhile. Recapping.
August 1st,
Movie marathon with SPC kids. We only saw two movies. LOL!
The guys; Cang, Richy, Tony, Matthew, and me were playing Yu-Gi-Oh...
LOL! Don't hate bitches. -_-
After the INTENSE dueling session, we went over to the ghetto cholo park near Tina's house.
Made a bet with Christina, pink haired girl! LOL!, that's her nickname, that she wouldn't stay clean before she graduates. 50 bucks is the bet. We'll find out who wins in 3 years or sooner. LOL!
Yea, came back watched Balls of Fury and then Tiffany, Richy, and me went home.
August 4th,
Aunt Nancy and grandparents came over with Bella. Oh goodness, she's such a cutie. But she messes around to much. -_- Got her greasy hands over my keyboard! D: It's ok though, I forgive her. She have me a hug and a kiss before she left. Sucha a cutie for a two year old. And she talks a lot! Ahahaha. I don't remember seeing a baby talk that much before.
But yea, they orginally came over to just hang out for abit and somehow we ended up cooking liek crazy. LOL! So spontaneous. Made some asian noodles and tempura. Yumm!
So it's been two weeks now. I recently read her blog. And it seems she's moving on now.
So I guess it's really over between us. I thought maybe one day we could try again. But it turns out that all of it was just wishful thinking.
She was the one I truly loved. Thinking back to my past relationships and now. I can honestly say that I've never loved any of them. No, they were just an infatuation that led to a failed relationship. And yet, this relationship failed, but I can't let her go like I did the others.
With them it was just so easy. Oh, they dumped me. Okay, moving on.
But now, I don't know what to do. She's still on my mind 24/7.
Why do I still have feelings for her? I honestly don't know.
I can't think of any words to explain why other than this one; love.
But now, we're just friends and if that's the best I can get, then I'll have to deal.
At least I'll still get to see her and talk to her. That should be enough to help me get by.
Because I'd rather have her friendship then lose her completely from my life.
I'd really be lost then. Ahahah.
But yea, I'm done with relationships. I'm quiting now for the same reason I quit two years ago. The disappointment and pain. If this is part of love then I've already had enough.
Two more weeks and I'll know the answer to my own question.
Two more weeks.
So I guess it's time for me to start picking up the pieces of my heart and put them back together by myself like I've always done.
But, I'll leave this here in case she ever reads this.
Know that I'll always be here if you ever need anything.
You'll always have a special place in my heart.
And yet even after all this, I still can't stop missing you.
I love you.
And I wish you the best in life.<3
[Marques Houston - Sunset] This one I dedicate to you.
Range - Forfeiting
Oh, and it seems alternative is coming back to my life. Ahaha!
Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over
Your Call
Fall For You
Broken
Maybe
Awake
Half Alive
Tested and True
Stay Close, Don't Go
Last Time
These song are beast!
August 1st,
Movie marathon with SPC kids. We only saw two movies. LOL!
The guys; Cang, Richy, Tony, Matthew, and me were playing Yu-Gi-Oh...
LOL! Don't hate bitches. -_-
After the INTENSE dueling session, we went over to the ghetto cholo park near Tina's house.
Made a bet with Christina, pink haired girl! LOL!, that's her nickname, that she wouldn't stay clean before she graduates. 50 bucks is the bet. We'll find out who wins in 3 years or sooner. LOL!
Yea, came back watched Balls of Fury and then Tiffany, Richy, and me went home.
August 4th,
Aunt Nancy and grandparents came over with Bella. Oh goodness, she's such a cutie. But she messes around to much. -_- Got her greasy hands over my keyboard! D: It's ok though, I forgive her. She have me a hug and a kiss before she left. Sucha a cutie for a two year old. And she talks a lot! Ahahaha. I don't remember seeing a baby talk that much before.
But yea, they orginally came over to just hang out for abit and somehow we ended up cooking liek crazy. LOL! So spontaneous. Made some asian noodles and tempura. Yumm!
So it's been two weeks now. I recently read her blog. And it seems she's moving on now.
So I guess it's really over between us. I thought maybe one day we could try again. But it turns out that all of it was just wishful thinking.
She was the one I truly loved. Thinking back to my past relationships and now. I can honestly say that I've never loved any of them. No, they were just an infatuation that led to a failed relationship. And yet, this relationship failed, but I can't let her go like I did the others.
With them it was just so easy. Oh, they dumped me. Okay, moving on.
But now, I don't know what to do. She's still on my mind 24/7.
Why do I still have feelings for her? I honestly don't know.
I can't think of any words to explain why other than this one; love.
But now, we're just friends and if that's the best I can get, then I'll have to deal.
At least I'll still get to see her and talk to her. That should be enough to help me get by.
Because I'd rather have her friendship then lose her completely from my life.
I'd really be lost then. Ahahah.
But yea, I'm done with relationships. I'm quiting now for the same reason I quit two years ago. The disappointment and pain. If this is part of love then I've already had enough.
Two more weeks and I'll know the answer to my own question.
Two more weeks.
So I guess it's time for me to start picking up the pieces of my heart and put them back together by myself like I've always done.
But, I'll leave this here in case she ever reads this.
Know that I'll always be here if you ever need anything.
You'll always have a special place in my heart.
And yet even after all this, I still can't stop missing you.
I love you.
And I wish you the best in life.<3
[Marques Houston - Sunset] This one I dedicate to you.
Range - Forfeiting
Oh, and it seems alternative is coming back to my life. Ahaha!
Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over
Your Call
Fall For You
Broken
Maybe
Awake
Half Alive
Tested and True
Stay Close, Don't Go
Last Time
These song are beast!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Wowzers.
Name: Andrew Tran
Date: 8/5/2009
Colorgenics Number: 17053426
At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.
Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.
You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
These things are pretty damn good...
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