Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas Eve! :)

There comes time in life when you realize that the ones you’re with are the ones you’re meant to be with. That those who left you were merely shadows reflected off a dimly lit wall. That these feelings of happiness and joy cannot be replicated with any other group of people. That these people are reflections of the best aspects of yourself.

That all of the hardships that you have endured have made you stronger. That the tears you have cried have built the foundation of which you stand. That it’s OK to cry. That it’s OK to hurt, to feel, to be vulnerable. That vulnerability is not a sign of weakness but a sign of trust. That it is OK to trust.

That you will laugh more than you will cry. That a smile can spread through the hearts of others more than words. That what you do and how you act is beautiful. That beauty and perfection can be found in the darkest places. That you are a beacon of light in a person’s life.

That love is as real as you want it to be. That the difference between love and pain is time. That the difference between work and art is passion. That love is passion.

And that no matter how far you stray, you are always loved.

^^I stole that off Camille's blog. I think it's pretty epic.
I'd like to dedicate this to my family as always. We have our shit like every other family, but in the end family is the one thing you'll always have.
For my true friends, the ones that've stayed by me after everything that went down and shit.
And last but not least, St. Patrick Chieu Leadership aka SPCL. I've never really expressed my appreciation and my love for them. But, if it weren't for them, I think I'd have gone insane through my high school years. There's so much to say, but I can only think of four words right now to express my gratitude for everyone.
My family, friends, SPC, and etc.

I love you guys!<3

Sunday, December 20, 2009

HOLY SHIZZ!

I just got mind fucked by Avatar in the IMAX experience.
The Last Airbender can go die!
I gotta say nothing comes close to Avatar. That shit was so beast.
I highly recommend it! Oh shit... I'm still just sitting here thinking about it.
The movie makes you hella think about what we do as people.
All I gotta say and can say is it's fucking amazing, period.
GO SEE IT! NOW!

Damn, there's hella more to blog about the day and the past weeks.
Been hella mia. But, oh wells.
I'm hella tired. I'm off to bed.
G'Night!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I Gotta Feeling...

That today was a good one. :)
So dam, I've been lazy to blog. As always. LOL!
But yea, so life's been pretty good.
Finally got my Sea blue AA Jacket! YEE!
So yea, life's been good. School is just whatever now.
I'm gunna go to a community college forsure, if I don't join the Navy or some other military branch before that. But otherwise, I'm just whatever now.
Just gotta raise my F in Precalc to at least a D to get the credits.
Sigh! Why am I so lazy?! GOSH!
Man, I'm getting old. Turning 17 in 14 days! LOL!
Okay, not that old yet but still! Another year then I'm legal.

Well, today was Youth Rally at Trung Tham. It was pretty cool.
Not as big as last years but still cool. Made some new friends and caught with some old ones. Overall, it was pretty cool.
I gotta be honest though, seeing Hai with a different school made me feel weird inside. Like when MHT played their video, at the ending was Hai walking through the door with cheesy smile. I was like; "Damn, Lucky them."
Ahahah, I guess I was being selfish. I've been with Hai for 3 years and it just grew onto me. He's like the older brother I didn't have.
But yea, we all gotta grow up some day.
It was good to see him again. I'ma go this Friday to the reunion forsure.
I'ma try helping him out at MHT or SJV as much as I can.
I wouldn't mind the extra load. Meet new people and probably see old ones.
But, talking about Hai. SPC as of lately has been disappointing.
I could list a bunch of reasons. But, I'm going to save them for another day.
But other than that today was a good day.
We'll see how things go from here.

I think Tina Do is a cutie. :)
AND TINA NHAM! YOU ARE SUCH A COCKBLOCKER! >:O

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Man in the Mirror.

Whoazers! It's been awhile. Ahahaha, school has been time consumingish.
I gotta get my shit straight quick. I'm failing math. -_-
Bleh, needa stop being lazy! LOL! I need some inspiration or some shizz.
Whatever, enough about school for now.

So yea, this week has been like throw-back week for me. Been listening to MJ (R.I.P.), some MC Hammer (HAMMERTIME! LOL), and Vanilla Ice and all that shit. But nothing beats the YMCA! AHAHAHAH! Just kidding though, MJ's songs kill errthing else.
But yea, the title of this particular blog and the obviously the song explains what I've been thinking about mostly. I needa get my shit straight.
Just like in the song:

"I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change, yey"

Good shit right there, you wanna change the world or something like that?
You gotta start with the one thing that matters most, you.
And in the YMCA song, hella true too.
No man does anything by himself. Well, in most cases.
Like with Obama, if it weren't for his campaign managers and all that jazz, he wouldn't be where he is today. Sometimes, we just gotta learn how to throw our pride aside and get shit straight.
But yea, on that note I'd like to apologize to those I hurt in anyway around the summertime and such. I made some pretty stupid decisions and I guess you could say I'm paying for it now. Pushed away friends and lost the ones that really mattered to me. And for what? I did all of that shit for nothing.
But what's done is done. Dwelling in the past isn't going to get me anywhere.
But yea, I miss the old times. The homies, the hangouts, and all that jazz.
My biggest regret? Losing the person that mattered most to me.
My best friend, Cathy Le.
Man, I swear she knew how to make me laugh and shit no matter what the situation. The one who was always there for me when shit went down. And what'd I do? I decided to push her aside and ignore her. Left her in the dark when she needed me and throughout the whole summer all it would've took was for me to hit her up and see if she was down to chill. But even then, maybe things might've turned out different from the way they are now.
And on that note, I'd hate to admit it. But, I miss you best0.
But, it seems you're doing good now. So I think I'll stay on the sidelines for now, I'm pretty sure you don't all this extra weight on your shoulders.
Metaphorically speaking and literally speaking. LOL!
Ever since I stopped taking P.E., I've been lazy as fuck.
Gotta get back in shape for future events and such!

But yea, so supposedly my mom called the U.S. Navy and talked to them.
They got my number and started talking to me about their program and shizz.
And I've been thinking lately, The Navy doesn't seem so bad. I mean I get to travel for free and during those 3 months or so or training, they open up a bank account under my name and put in money for me to spend after.
I mean free money for spending and they pay for college after! Whatta bargain right? And besides 2-3 years away from home shouldn't be too bad. I've always wanted to travel before I get into the whole working, bills, and etc. You know? Travel and explore the world while I'm young and capable.
So now the Navy is a possibility now after high school.
It'd be nice. Away from home and the stress of school and everything.
I just need some time for me. Just me.

The camping trip that was suppose to take place this Saturday wasn't something I was really looking forward to. Because as we all know, there's been minor drama between SPC and SPS. So I was iffy about it. But due to lack of interest from the students, it's being postponed till the spring time according to Thay Tung. So yeee!
And besides Saturday is Tina's Sweet Sixteen. :D
Looking forward to that fersure. Kick it with the kids and spend some quality time with them. If you know what I mean. ;D But she's inviting her friends from like everywhere so it's gunna be pretty big. YAY, for meeting new people. Ahahaha! But yea, I'm pretty excited.
Hmm, there was more I wanted to say but I think this is enough word vomit for one day. :)

Oh and on that note, I'd like to recommend this song to everyone.
The song and video is just amazing. It was made using pictures and pretty much making it into a slideshow. But, for me it's the lyrics that got my attention. You'll probably have to listen to it more than once to get everything.
But yea, just listen.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Hello & Goodbye...

It's been awhile! Been lazy as fuck.
LOL! I gotta stop procrastinating like asap.
School's going alright so far.
My next two hours for behind-the-wheel is tomorrow.
Got hella excited and shit for it. Shit was boring. -_-
Maybe cause I'm driving around in a Yaris with a fucking fatass sign on the top of the car saying:
Access Certified Driving School.
FML!

But yea, so life's been good. Caught up with some old friends and made some new ones.
Lost one or two. But you know, shit happens.
One of them said that I was being shady and shit.
I guess, I gave you a fucking place to stay when you needed it. And then you gunna up and leave with out saying a word?
I mean, it's cool if you wanna hang with your new homies and shit. I don't mind.
But, you gunna leave without saying shit and talk some shit?
Whatevs. Like what I always say, Fuck it.

Anyways, last Saturday was fun. Major stress reliever for me. Moon festival or w/e with the SPC kids. Did some pretty stupid ass stuff. Like Jackass stupid. LOL!
Goodshit goodshit though.
Went to Smoke Eaters for the first time. That shit was worth the buck.
I'm down to try Inferno next time. The third level, Atomic, made my lips burn a bit.
So I'm guessing Inferno is gunna be like tears running down my face & shit. LOL!
Yes, I can see it all now. Ahahaha!
Some shit went down. But, we got that shit settled... for now.
Got my two new Azuki shirts that I've been wanting. :D
Broke as fuck now. LOL! Gotta come up with 25 bucks for Tina and her AA Jacket! :D
And I'm excited for Saturday! Because I'm getting my AA Jackets!
Black and Navy colored for the win!
And then I needa start saving up to get her Christmas and birthday present that are way overdue I think. LOL!
OH! And Heroes started again! YEE! Now I got a show for Mondays. But they fcuked it up and changed the viewing time to 8pm from 9pm. I like it at 9pm better because I'd knock out like right after. LOL! Oh wells, shit happens.
Alright I think that's it for today. Lates!


My Boys.

My Boys.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

YEE!

I'm in Miami trick!
...FUCK THAT!
I'm in the Bay BITCH!
I PASSED MY PERMIT TEST!
MINUS TWO!
YEEE!
Now for Behind-the-wheel.
I'm excited.
:D

Alright, AP GOV reading time! D:

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Better Today.

11:11 Makes a wish! :D

So it's been awhile since I've blogged. School is busy as fuck.
Well not really. Just been lazy. AHAHAHA!
AP GOV is ...
So much reading, but the class is pretty damn fun.
Haven't been doing much. Home and go out once a week or so.
Visiting my little cousin Bella this weekend! Hopefully.
She just got out of surgery, and it was a success! :D
But yea, caught up with a bunch of people and shit.
Pretty cool. And then now it seems the group lost a person.
I guess. Left without saying a word.
So why the fuck should I bother?
I mean, I don't mind. If you're gunna bounce and chill with a different group then at least put it out there. You ain't gotta explain but let us know. Don't leave people hanging.
I fucking hate that feeling. I do it to people sometimes too. So I guess you could call me a hypocrite. But fuck. Whatevs.
What's done is done.
So SPC is starting up soon. I thought I was over it.
Surprisingly, I'm looking forward to seeing all them kids again. It'll be fun.
But, I won't be around as much. Maybe, AP GOV and Physio projects are gunna keep my busy for awhile. Hopefully I can get those shizz out the way quick.
Oh! And I'm finally getting my permit tomorrow. LOL!
After like what? A year of lagging?
My parents excuse? You're gunna go out too much.
Which is probably true. LOL! FUCKING EXCITED AS FUCK!
Well, I can't think of anything else right now.
So I'll end it here.

GOODNIGHTS!
(After I finish my Bleach episode!) :D



Leona Lewis - Happy

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Dear _______.

Hmm. Thought I took a few steps forward after all this time.
But today, it seems like I took those few steps back.
It's confusing. And I can't find words for it.
I don't know. Maybe, I'm just tripping.
But then why am I feeling like this?
Quite shocked myself, but I think I'm missing you...

Monday, August 31, 2009

I like this...

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
-Marilyn Monroe

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Frozen Yogurt?!

Today was a good day.
Spent the first half of the day with my family at my Uncle's picnic.
GODDAMN! Hella food there. LOL! It was alright. My other uncle kept teasing me and shit.
Cause one my uncle's co-worker's daughter kept looking at me. LOL!
BALLING! But no thanks. She looked way to fucking young. And even if she wasn't, no thanks.
But another chick my uncle didn't see made me laugh inside.
So I was sitting listening to music and drinking my soda. I look up and then I see her sitting on the other side. She was wearing sunglasses. And then she turned to my direction.
Put down my soda, look back up, to see that she pulled her shades up just to look.
LOL! HELLA NOT OBVIOUS. I must be good. ;D Ahahaha.
Didn't get no numbers though. D: But it's cool. They prolly live like nowhere near me.
No thanks for long distance.
So yea, that was the first half.
Got home and showered and waited to get picked up.
Went out with Camille, Tina, and Phillip(Camille's boyfriend).
Chilled in the Willow Glen area.
Ate at Willow Glen Wood-Fired Pizza? Think that's the name.
Hella good. Thanks Phillip for paying! :D
Went to Pallows? I think that's how to spell that one too. LOL!
HOLY SHIT! That was like candy heaven. No lie. Old school candy to new ones. Fucking saw chiclets for the first time in a loooong ass time. And hella other shit. AND RAZZLES!
Fuck, all I know is if I'm ever nearby I'ma stop by.
Fuck, candy heaven I tell you.
Then we went to get some frozen yogurt.
Fuck, it was hella good. Gotta remember that place. COOKIE DOUGH! :D
And Tina's failed cone that broke after like 3 licks. LOL!
So yea, Phillip went home to get some stuff and then he dropped Tina off first and then me.
Good day. I could use more days like those. Needa get away from home.


Lately, I've been feeling tall again.
So I guess it means I'm moving on.
Kinda reluctant. But this is what's best.
So it's time to start anew.
And I'll start here.
I wish you well
and the best.
I salute you.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Goodbye Summer.

So summer has come to an end.
School starts tomorrow.
Hopefully my classes will be cool.
So summer overall was good. Got rough towards the end.
But that's life, right? Shit happens.
Regrets? Nah, I ain't got none.
I've changed. I know that much.
For good or worse? I dunno.
Time will tell. Or maybe I'll become my old self.
I wouldn't mind that. I'd like that actually.
I guess you could say I was invincible before everything happened.
Nothing really brought me down much.
Hmm. But like I said, shit happens.
It just drives me crazy how much I've changed.
Now that I look back at it, it makes me laugh.
Maybe I was just being foolish. Who knows. But whatevs.
Hopefully things will turn in my favor eventually.
To me the beginning of a new school year is really the "new" year for me and the end of the old.
So it's time to clean the slate and start anew.
Wouldn't mind meeting new people and catching up with those I haven't seen in awhile.
It'd be a nice change instead of coming home all the time.
I needa get out of the house... like seriously.
Alright, well I'm out.



The Office - Fly Away
Jordan Omley - Just A Lie

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Let it Burn.

So I got my schedule for senior year. 5 classes! WHOOO!

1st - Spanish 3 Quiroga...she's fcuking weird
2nd - Math Analysis Bhatnagar
3rd - Physiology Taylor
4th - English 4 Aisola
5th - AP Gov Fanciullo
5th - Economics 2nd semester
Open 6th and 7th! Go home at lunch everyday. Yay me!

So yea, got my ID card too. Got my books after cuz the book room was gunna be closed.
How lame. Lazy fools don't wanna give it out on the frist week. -_-
And then Thai dropped me and Phillip back at my house. We dropped off our books and then biked to Taco Bell for lunch. Went back to EV after so Phillip could take his senior portaits. Turns out the paper was wrong. You have to make an appointment in order to retake them. So we went up for nothing. Came home and chilled for a bit and Phillip went home.

So she stopped by yesterday. I just said Hey. She was with Michelle most of the time. I didn't know what to say. And I kinda didn't want to talk. Because If I started a conversation then that means I'd have to say goodbye. The frist time was hard enough. To do it again? I don't think I could've handle it. It was like she muted me when she came. I didn't talk at all. I just sat in front of my computer. I don't know I think I've become foolish. I know why I haven't been sleeping. Before she'd call around 3ish. So i got use to it. So even when I tell myself not to wait because I know she's isnt going to call, I end up waiting anyways. I just lay there. Listening to music and checking my phone constantly. Heh, lame huh? That's how I've been spending my summer nights. Just waiting by the phone. Wishing that she'd call or drop a text to say what's up. Its funny though. I wanna talk to her but at the same time, I'm hesitant to do so.
It's like what do I say to her? Talking to someone is so much harder than it sounds.
But it seems like she's doing good now. And I think I got my answer.

I think it's time to let it burn.

Pretty Damn Good.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Friday, August 14, 2009

"Nothing I can do, but to sit and think of you..."

11:11 Make a wish.

So today was beach day with some of the SPC kids. It was pretty fun.
First time at Sunset beach. Pretty nice there. A lotta people though.
It was windy. And the water was freezing cold as always.
Chilled at the beach until 5ish and then we headed out.
Everyone came back to my house. Ahaha. As always, either mines or Camille's house.
Where we grilled the rest of the burgers and got hot dogs. Made grilled cheese also.
Chilled some more. Pictionary. Wii. Movies. And boxing with the guys.
Ahahah! Anthony's stance is fucking hilarious.
And then we ended with a movie as always.
The last to leave were Myanh and Phouc Anh.
Chill day I guess.


Fourteenth.
Happy Would-Be Three Months.
To be honest, today was shit.
Woke up in the morning to realize that it was the 14th. Sitting on my bed.
The same place I asked her out. The same place we decided to put aside the title of boyfriend/girlfriend. The same place the conversation to end it completely took place.
So many memories came back. All the times we spent together, the stupid moments, the little fights over nothing, the big fights, and the love we shared. And no, not that dirty shit for all you dirty minded people. Leave those thoughts for some place else. Thanks.
I don't know how much longer I can keep up this happy face on. Because to be honest. I'm not.
Lately I've been crying so easily over the little things that remind me of you. It's quite lame actually. Watching the Korean Fullhouse with my little sister. And how their story was somewhat like ours. The part when they decided to finish through with the divorce... I didn't even notice until Michelle asked if I needed a tissue. I was like "What the fuck are you talking about?!"
Wipe my eyes to see that there were tears. Shocked me. I've never been like this before. Never.
Honestly, today I was happy for Tiffany and Richy. They made it to six months. They beat everyone's expectaions. But, at the same time I hated them. I envied them. They made it this far. But, I couldn't make it. Seeing them spend time together just reminds me of her even more. The whole day I was trying to avoid Tiffany and Richy. Ahaha. I guess Richy sensed something was wrong. Cause he kept coming up to me to see what's up. Funny how things never work out how you want it to. But, that's life. I wonder if she even thinks of me. School's starting after next week. Summer went by to fast. I'm not ready for it. I wonder if I'll see her again anytime soon. Or if I'll ever see her again at all. I miss her. And to be honest, I still love her. Maybe I'm a fool for holding on. But, I'm not here to ask for another chance to make things the way they were.
Because I believe that everything happens for a reason.
My only request is that maybe, just maybe, one day; her and I could start over. No, not from where we left off. But a fresh start. It'll be hard. But, if we try, then nothing's impossible.
To start anew. As if we just met for the first time. Ahaha. But, I guess all of this is just wishful thinking. I'll probably never get another chance. Love hurts, but it's a price we all choose to pay.
It's the risk that everyone who fall in love take.

Well it's late and I'm going to try and get some sleep.
Haven't been sleeping well. And the mornings are painful and tiring.
Goodnight.


I miss you.


David Choi - Only You

Friday, August 7, 2009

"As my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost..."

August 6th,
Hai's birthday was that day. Met up at Red Robins. 30 kids. GG.
They wouldnt take us in until we had all 30 so we had to wait. Asian time ftl.
The bill in total was like 400? LOL! Man, we're such pigs.
After we ate. some kids headed home and the rest of us went to Barnes & Nobles.
Finally got my AP Gov book. Looks boring. Didn't even start it yet.
After that the rest of the kids that could stay later headed over to Camille's house.
Movie marathon! LOL! And some gossiping. It seems Nang is finally growing some balls.
LOL! That fool is finally trying. Jesus, after what? 3 years? Hah.
Headed home at around 11:30ish or so.

She was going to come over and chill. But I had plans and she couldn't have made it until later in the day. It's been so long. I wonder when I will see her again. Will I ever see her again?
I sure hope I do.


August 7th,
California's Great America with some of the Leadership kids! Hella fun.
Mom and Michelle decided to tag along. I guess...
Top Gun was closed though. D: Didn't get to go on that one. Invertigo was fucking scary as hell.
3 seconds of hangtime... and then CLICK!(brakes unlock)...SWOOSH! Off you go.
I gotta admit though, it was hella fun.
And then spent the rest of the time at Boomerang Bay.
Wave pool, water slides, and Castaway Creek.
Had some funnel cake and then we left. Dropped off Richy first and then My-Anh after.
And then had to cousins house to eat after. It was fucking 9pm and I still had to go.
Was so tired and sunburnt...
Came home, chilled online for a bit and then I crashed.
Yes, I started this post on Friday. I didn't finish it till now.
-_- It's Sunday.



I miss you.


Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life
SteveO - Crying Inside

Thursday, August 6, 2009

What now?

It's been awhile. Recapping.

August 1st,
Movie marathon with SPC kids. We only saw two movies. LOL!
The guys; Cang, Richy, Tony, Matthew, and me were playing Yu-Gi-Oh...
LOL! Don't hate bitches. -_-
After the INTENSE dueling session, we went over to the ghetto cholo park near Tina's house.
Made a bet with Christina, pink haired girl! LOL!, that's her nickname, that she wouldn't stay clean before she graduates. 50 bucks is the bet. We'll find out who wins in 3 years or sooner. LOL!
Yea, came back watched Balls of Fury and then Tiffany, Richy, and me went home.

August 4th,
Aunt Nancy and grandparents came over with Bella. Oh goodness, she's such a cutie. But she messes around to much. -_- Got her greasy hands over my keyboard! D: It's ok though, I forgive her. She have me a hug and a kiss before she left. Sucha a cutie for a two year old. And she talks a lot! Ahahaha. I don't remember seeing a baby talk that much before.
But yea, they orginally came over to just hang out for abit and somehow we ended up cooking liek crazy. LOL! So spontaneous. Made some asian noodles and tempura. Yumm!

So it's been two weeks now. I recently read her blog. And it seems she's moving on now.
So I guess it's really over between us. I thought maybe one day we could try again. But it turns out that all of it was just wishful thinking.
She was the one I truly loved. Thinking back to my past relationships and now. I can honestly say that I've never loved any of them. No, they were just an infatuation that led to a failed relationship. And yet, this relationship failed, but I can't let her go like I did the others.
With them it was just so easy. Oh, they dumped me. Okay, moving on.
But now, I don't know what to do. She's still on my mind 24/7.
Why do I still have feelings for her? I honestly don't know.
I can't think of any words to explain why other than this one; love.
But now, we're just friends and if that's the best I can get, then I'll have to deal.
At least I'll still get to see her and talk to her. That should be enough to help me get by.
Because I'd rather have her friendship then lose her completely from my life.
I'd really be lost then. Ahahah.
But yea, I'm done with relationships. I'm quiting now for the same reason I quit two years ago. The disappointment and pain. If this is part of love then I've already had enough.
Two more weeks and I'll know the answer to my own question.
Two more weeks.

So I guess it's time for me to start picking up the pieces of my heart and put them back together by myself like I've always done.
But, I'll leave this here in case she ever reads this.
Know that I'll always be here if you ever need anything.
You'll always have a special place in my heart.

And yet even after all this, I still can't stop missing you.
I love you.

And I wish you the best in life.<3
[Marques Houston - Sunset] This one I dedicate to you.


Range - Forfeiting


Oh, and it seems alternative is coming back to my life. Ahaha!
Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over
Your Call
Fall For You
Broken
Maybe
Awake
Half Alive
Tested and True
Stay Close, Don't Go
Last Time

These song are beast!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Wowzers.

Name: Andrew Tran
Date: 8/5/2009
Colorgenics Number: 17053426


At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.


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Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Cherish.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.” -Bob Marley”

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Hot Dammn!

Damn, So I haven't blogged in awhile.
But neways, this week has been a pretty confusing yet, good one. LOL!
It was Battle week. Bought my battle shirt and went broke. Fail. Congratz to EVHS Class of '09! They whooped ass and their props,OMG. Good Effing Game.
But still, 2010 for the win. All day, err day! :D We did good.
But Friday was fun. Wasn't planning on going to Battle, but I got dragged along in the end by Tiffany, Richy, and Yen.
Tiffany and Yen got tickets.
Me and Richy didn't. -_-
We sneaked in only to get caught right when we were about to step onto the bleachers.
Fuck Mrs. Marfia.
But, Richy and me kicked it outside for like 3 hours, chilling. Fucking Bromance. LOL!

Then today, well yesterday now, went up to one of the InnVision shelter homes in downtown SJ.
We served pho and did some arts and crafts with the people at the shelter. It was a good experience. They thanked us and said how much they appreciated our work and time to prepare them a meal. Not just any meal, but, a Vietnamese one at that!
Then headed back to St. Patricks and just chilled. Then went to choir practice and then church. Man, cockblocked by Cha Hien. -_- Not cool. Uyen knows, she can tell you if you've read this and want to know. AHAHAHA! FML!
Then as usual, Uyen, MyAnh, Richy, and Phouc Anh came over and we chilled. Chilled and watched some good ole Russel Peters. LOL!
So today was a pretty deep day from my point of view. Learned more things about some people and shared some of my stuff. Ahahaha. Good day!
Well theres a shitload of other things to say. But, I'm tired and MyAnh wants to go jogging in the morning. -_- So I'm out.
JUST DO IT MYANH! GOSH! LOL! DON'T HESITATE!

And Oh My Fucking Gosh. While watching Zack & Miri Makes a Porno w/ the kids. My ViewSonic monitor of two years. ONLY TWO YEARS! Decided to die on me. *TEARS* Now I gotta spend money that I don't have on a new monitor. -_- FML!

Well, Goodnights! Off to bed to get some rest for jogging tomorrow. LOL!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Pfft.

First trees get cut down. Then the Nazi Symbol is placed in the Quad. -_-
And now rumors say that there's gunna be a shooting. What The Fucking Shit?
Pfft, what is our society turning into?
So, I'm guessing I might not go to school tomorrow. We'll see. Haven't decided yet.
But w/e. Well I'm off. Gotta finish my Spanish project. -_- FML

Saturday, March 14, 2009

I'm drained.

FUCK ME! Who'd ever thought the SATs could be so physically demanding. LOL!
My neck hurts, my back aches, and my head is still throbbing from all that thinking. LOL I hated when the instructor would yell "5 minutes left."
That's when the pressure hit. PFFT. I'd always have like 3-4 questions left.
Not cool.
Well, after SATs went to SPC for a bit. Anthony's new hair made me ROFL! But whatever. He's still beast. Then went to church. So I'm pretty much set for the weekend ,except, there's still homework. -_-
Then went to Eastridge w/ some of the kids. Saw Ms. March. LOL! IT'S A MUST SEE! AHAHAHAHAHA! All I'ma say is "pees through a straw." LOL!
Damn, so today turned out pretty good.
Well, I'm out. The kids are still over.

G'Night.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Mhmm.

Well what better a day to start blogging than the day before SATs? LOL!
Well, this Friday was pretty much like any other Friday.
Wake up, school, then home. Nothing new really in life.
I studied for the SATs for like two weeks..... Then stopped. FML
But, whatever. I'm not worrying about it too much. Whatever happens, happens.
But yea, I'm happy though. I guess that's cuz my mom came up to me one afternoon and just started talking to me and telling me how much she loved me because I was her only son. (That was a tear dropper. LOL) So, I'ma keep my end of the deal and do my best for her. :) Love you, mom!

Ahaha, well, that's it for the evening.
Signing out for the first time.
-Andrew Tran